Webcomics!

Hello its your friendly neighborhood person with way too much time and a hell of a lot of opinions!

so here are some webcomics I like and yes I realize that I am a huge dork.

1.Puppetry -so so many of her comics I think Oh dear god she is me
2. The Devils Panties - hey looky comic number one has a sister with a comic too. Her comics are so much fun
3. Girls with Slingshots- hehe they are funny. I love the cactus
4. Flaky Pastry -Zintiel and neighbor are my favorites
5. Kukuburi -the colors on this one are gorgeous and they have lots of hats
6. I Was Kidnapped by Lesbian Pirates from Outer Space - why yes it is an exceedingly long name and a great comic.
7. Loli Loves Venom - aw aren't they cute

the end...for now

Oh my god I have a blog

Guess what I forgot I had you! oh my

Anyway so to update absolutely no one I am back at home *cringe* and I am taking care of my Gramma. I am mildly stressed out and I haven't had my period in months because of it. grr.

Wow I just looked at the list from my last post. I did..some of those things

1. Really try to save money next month instead of just pretending to save money- hahaha nope
2. Make a resume- no
3. Finish and send out thank you cards-um maybe??? I don't remember
4. Go to lunch with Catalina- nope
5. Tell people goodbye-no well maybe like one person
6. Remember to unenroll in that class and to cancel the movie pass thing- YES!
7. Eat all the food I have so I don't have to pack and move food. That is rediculous- mostly yes
8. Pack-eventually I did that
9. Decide what day I want to leave and talk to mom-hey I did that
10. Finish my sewing projects- no way
11. Get to the renaissance festival-yes!
12. Have one last Durango Hurrah no matter if I decide to come visit again or not.-nope
13. Think about what the heck I am going to do when I move and how and why and what and aaaaahhhhh.-probably not
14. Disappear-This I totally did! I am a ghost

To Do List

1. Really try to save money next month instead of just pretending to save money
2. Make a resume
3. Finish and send out thank you cards
4. Go to lunch with Catalina
5. Tell people goodbye
6. Remember to unenroll in that class and to cancel the movie pass thing
7. Eat all the food I have so I don't have to pack and move food. That is rediculous
8. Pack
9. Decide what day I want to leave and talk to mom
10. Finish my sewing projects
11. Get to the renaissance festival
12. Have one last Durango Hurrah no matter if I decide to come visit again or not.
13. Think about what the heck I am going to do when I move and how and why and what and aaaaahhhhh.
14. Disappear

This is no fun

Life really really sucks right now. Not entirely from outside sources too but from shit I did to myself. I really don't know what to do and I really just want things to end. I want to stop having school. I want to have a decent life without so much stress and anxiety. I just want to feel normal again. I hate life. Every day is the worst day of my life.

People I Love

So these are people I admire or love in some sense off the top of my head. If you don't know who they are I am so sad for you.

Kate Winslet
Emma Thompson
Alfred Molina
Tim Curry
Eddie Izzard
Johnny Depp
Oscar Wilde
Jane Austen
Elenore Roosevelt
Alice Walker
Alexis Arquette
Zora Neale Hurston
Ani DiFranco
Josh Groban
My mommy
Gramma
Grampa
Las Mariposas
Kate Bornstien
Tracy Chapman
Gael Garcia Bernal
Ghandi
Che
Fidel (Yes I will say it)
do da do
I can't think right now but that is probably because I got 2 hours of sleep last night!!!! Yay!
More to come as I think of things

I love love love Alexis Arquette. I want to be her best friend. I think she is fabulous and funny and such an incredible person. She was the only reason to watch the Surreal Life. Anyway I just thought I'd let you know that. Whoever you are.

Goals Suck

Oh beautiful shoes I pine for you!!! but alas I have made "goals" ew. Get out of debt and start working out. Shoes not helpful for getting out of debt and not really work out shoes. Oh problems.

On to other issues. I don't want to work at the EC anymore. I can't even deal with Marcus and wierd changes. I am thinking of taking a job at El Centro which would be much less stress but I feel so obligated to the Environmental Center. I don't know what to do! Story of my life though. oh well on the up side I get to go home this weekend and I am buying my mom's car which wil be 1,000 times easier for me. I am so tired of not having my freedom. But I think I will have to get another job to help pay for it. Boo Job, Hooray Car! (love those commercials).

Lies

I talk big and I talk dirty
You know what it means
Jack shit
I act like such a bitch and a dominatrix who is kinky all the fucking time
But you know what
All I want is to be held and loved that's all
That is what I want now.
Don't worry we will get back to the kinky soon enough.

Hello World

Hi miss me? I miss me. I don't know what happened. I've been really down and out lately. Nothing phases me. You reject me. Don't want to go out with me? Ok well I will talk to you later. That's it I don't feel anything. I don't feel bad and I'm not mad or anything. It's like it never happened. I feel like nothing has happened to me in a long time. When was the last time I was truly happy? Truly loved? I want to feel someone to feel close to someone but fuck. I just can't. So what do I do? Let's go out and party. I will get drunk and then I will flirt and have fun and not remember or care the next morning. Ok so that isn't entirely true. I remember some of it and I do care. Especially well especially when what I do involves someone else. I don't mean to do anything that hurts anyone else. I just don't have the confidence in myself to stay but I do not want to be that girl. I don't want to just... well I just can't be the girl who sleeps with everyone just to make herself feel better. I want to be me and have someone think that I am wonderful just because of that. AAAHHHH I don't even know. I think I am going to go to bed.

Silly Survey

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Victoria
Birthday:	December 24th!!!
Birthplace:	Denver, CO
Current Location:	Durango, CO
Eye Color:	Brown but I think they are changing colors
Hair Color:	Well as of today it is brown with redish and coppery tints
Height:	5'6"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right Handed
Your Heritage:	Mostly Hispanic and Dutch
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Did I wear shoes?
Your Weakness:	I have so many... dark chocolate, dark men, pretty things, crafty supplies...oh the list could go on
Your Fears:	I am afraid of dead mice. dunno why
Your Perfect Pizza:	sundried tomatoes, feta cheese, black olives, and pepperoni
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	I don't have goals
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	yup. It is a good filler
Thoughts First Waking Up:	fuck. I don't wanna leave my bed
Your Best Physical Feature:	my boobs
Your Bedtime:	1 am usually
Your Most Missed Memory:	um what?
Pepsi or Coke:	neither
MacDonalds or Burger King:	neither
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	dunno
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate dark chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Tea please
Do you Smoke:	smoke what? me! never! okay so I do
Do you Swear:	like a fucking sailor
Do you Sing:	when the mood strikes me
Do you Shower Daily:	mostly yes
Have you Been in Love:	yes
Do you want to go to College:	I am in college but do I want to I don't know
Do you want to get Married:	Sometimes I think yes other times no
Do you belive in yourself:	Most days
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no
Do you think you are Attractive:	somedays
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	mostly
Do you like Thunderstorms:	hell yeah I think they are gorgeous
Do you play an Instrument:	flute and I pretend that i play guitar.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	definitely
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no damn it
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no...wait...no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	That would mean that I had been on a date so no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	um no wait perhaps...
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	no Oblivious but not a Tease
Ever been Beaten up:	no I kick ass
Ever Shoplifted:	yeah candy I think oh and possibly a pin
How do you want to Die:	I don't know some painless way
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	happy
What country would you most like to Visit:	France or Argentina
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Green...mmm sexy
Favourite Hair Color:	dark either black or brown
Short or Long Hair:	I have a thing for long hair but I don't mind short either
Height:	taller than me
Weight:	Doesn't matter
Best Clothing Style:	mmmm 20's pinstripe suit, fadora and spats damn hot. But for everyday just clothes that fit
Number of Drugs I have taken:	I don't know
Number of CDs I own:	hundreds
Number of Piercings:	two holes in each ear so two or four?
Number of Tattoos:	none...yet
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	a couple very distinct things all in high school.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Horseshit

I was doing well. Hanging out with friends, a little stressed but generally happy. So why am I here again? In march my Grampa died. Big Huge blow to the family. My family is very close. Besides my own emotional pain to deal with I had to help take care of everyone else. I came home this summer to help keep my gramma distracted and to help my mom out. I go back to school. My sister gets a boyfriend. No big deal right? Wrong. This kid is a loser who is older than her with no life, no future and does drugs and drinks. Ah so now she thinks she is in love so she sleeps with him. Good for you. I have no idea who my sister is anymore and neither does my mother. My mom is going nuts trying to 1 keep my gramma healthy and 2 trying to set some boundries with my sister and keep her from getting really hurt or from doing something stupid. My mom calls. Can you talk to your sister? Sure I'll fix everything. My mom calls. I need you to come home for the summer. Sure mom I'll drop my plans and future and be right there. My mom calls. Your cousin has been having massive seizures we need to fly to Oregon to see him. This may be your last chance. So I buy a plane ticket. I'm going to fly out there this weekend. Don't die. It would devastate the family. I worry it will kill my gramma. First week back from christmas break. Vagina monologues-1 month away. My girls are no where near ready. I need to call all of them and get a meeting planned this week. I haven't started working on publicity. 1 month away. second day back. One of the other directors calls. Sorry I quit. 1 MONTH AWAY. Great now I need to take on two other monologues. Have to fundraise too. Roommates come home. Really miss one. Want to kill the other one. No need for you to treat me like I am 5 years old. I think I can manage to do things on my own. Classes? Really need to stay on top of it this semester. I need to read and do the homework assigned. That is the goal anyway. Going to Oregon? Missing 2 days of school. No good for classes based on lectures.
Yay this on top of work, classes, FAB, Feminist Voice, Vagina Monologues, having crushes, dealing with friends, hanging out with friends and trying to live normally.

What I Know

I love:
*green
*pirates
*interesting people
*watching people
*mail
*penpals
*movies
*books and bookstores
*compassion
*having fun
*drinking
*being by myself sometimes
*making jewlery well and just jewlery
*making collages
*cutting up magazines
*learning
*tattoos and piercings
*motorcycles
*boots
*stories of revolution and strong women and men who made a difference
*other cultures besides this selfish American one

I hate:
*pink
*apathy
*stupidity
*whiny people
*having scars that don't have good stories
*having to live up to other people's expectations and standards
*school
*most girly things
*being girly
*crying
*patriotism for the wrong reasons and stupid displays of patriotism
*racism, sexism, ageism, and a whole slew of other isms
*poverty and homelessness

I fear:
*you (just kidding)
*being alone with no one to help me
*asking for help
*crying in front of others
*being weak
*waking up and going to sleep
*wasting my life and not making a big enough impact

I regret:
*not knowing what I wanted or want
*being oblivious
*being such a bitch
*not taking care of myself
*not knowing myself as much this past year as I have in the past

Think I am contradictory? Well every personality profile I have ever taken says so.

Christmas

Merry Christmas! or well the day after. I love Christmas partially because my birthday is the day before Christmas and partially because it is just a fun time of year. I stayed in Durango this year and my family came to visit me. They left this morning which was a lot sadder than it usually is. I kind of wanted to go home with them but I have to pick up Cece in a few days and I know I wouldn't want to stay two weeks there. If I had my own car or a way to get back I think I might have gone. I miss them a lot. More than I realized I guess.

Finals

I just finished with my 7:30 MONDAY MORNING Final. How stupid a time is that for a final. Oh well at least I am done for today. One down three to go! I fucked up and still have not finished my paper. I am going to do that today. It was due Friday but I am hoping my prof will be nice and let me still turn it in. I think he will. Well I'd better get that done today so I should start on that. FINALS!!!! I am almost done thank god.

I am going to fail

I am pretty sure that after this test I will be failing Spanish!!! Yay for me. I suck. I just can't seem to learn it this semester and it's not like it is really really hard but I still don't get it. Oh well on the positive side there is a chance that I will be able to graduate next year which is amazing and scary all at the same time. Finish school in three years! AAAHHH I think I probably will stay longer though because I don't really feel like I have learned enough you know? It just seems like I will be missing out on something if I don't go here for four years. I don't know what I am going to do but it is nice to know I have options.
On another positive note Halloween is now officially 4 days away but I am going to start celebrating tomorrow! Yay! I need to finish my costume....hum maybe I should do that now....no wait I have to finish my test. Damn oh well.
On an angry/sad note I hate it when guys cut their hair!!!!! I love long hair or longish hair and it pisses me off when people cut their hair. Ah well there must always be change in life and the only thing to do is say such is life. (besides it will always grow back and I am not that upset just disapointed)

Almost Halloween

Yay Yay Yay!!! It is almost Halloween. I've decided that that is my favorite holiday. I get to be anyone I want to be. ANYONE. I love it! I am going to party this year. I wish I was 21 so I could go to the transvestite ball at the abbey. Damn being young.
Woohoo I am going to direct the Vagina Monologues this year and I am so excited!!!!! I have so many ideas and I can't wait to meet the actresses and get started. AAAAAHHHH! It is such an amazing experience being in them I can't wait to pass that on to a group of new girls.
I am so fucking bummed! I can't be on FAB next semester because I have to take a fucking class during that time!!!! Grrr. I am all about the sound affects tonight. Any way I can't focus so I am off to bed.

Sometimes Things Just Suck

I just watched Garden State. I don't know why I haven't seen it before. Ah well I liked it all the same. It was pretty cute. I liked the scene in the bath tub. I have a friend that I feel safe with like that and it just makes me sad and wishing that I could talk to them more often.
I am so glad that it is the weekend but it never seems long enough. I have so much shit to get done and I have no time during the week. I am gone almost every day until 5 at the earliest and I start at 8. While this probably doesn't really seem like a big deal to most people who work full time it is killer on a college student. I am just as dedicated as anyone but with all the homework and work and the club and FAB I am just a little overwhelmed. I am super stressed and I can't make time for anything. My shoulders are starting to do that thing where they get sore and kinda shlumped. Definite sign that I am stretched too thin. I am so freaked out that one day someone is going to wake up and realize that I can't do this. I can't finish school. I'm not that smart. That I can't do my job. Ah well I need to get some sleep.

Counseling

So I decided to go to counseling. Mostly because Durr said it would probably be good for me. I have had two sessions and I think it may help. I've not been taking very good care of myself and so I suppose this is a step in the right direction. I have been so stressed lately. I have so much fucking work to do. I don't know if I will ever catch up. bleh. I think I will be alright though. Well I should get back to the massive amounts of homework I have to do. I suck it is a Saturday and I am doing homework.

Back at school

So I kinda missed school and at the same time I don't really wanna be back. I have been here a week and I still don't feel like I am back in the groove. I suppose I will get over it and just get on with classes. It kinda sucks because I am taking 20 credits which I haven't done yet so I hope I can do it. I think as long as I stay on top of things I will be alright. Well this is a boring entry but oh well.

Fuck

So I hung out with Bev today and I had a fucking blast!!!! woohoo Bev cuz uh you're the only one who reads this. Anyway but now I miss people and I am all sad and feeling well I dunno hopeless a little. Damn I always fuck up potential relationships. Fuckity fuck fuck. well At least I got some kick ass shot glasses to keep me company.

Who's Your Daddy

So today my mother just happens to mention that oh yeah your dad is coming down today and um well he may not go back to Denver. He may just move his ass down here. I am fucking pissed off! Why would he move down here? There is no reason to. I am in college most of the year. Amber is too old to give a shit about him now. It is way to damn late. Maybe he thinks that he is going to be able to find a job down here. But even if he does know where he is going to live? Oh yeah with us, fuck this shit.

Time to Lose

So I am searching for a job. Haven't found one yet but who knows what tomorrow may bring. This is not really the issue however I have decided that I need to stop complaining and hating and get off my fat ass and do something about my weight. I have just sat areound doing nothing for far too long, so this summer I am going to work on that one. Any way that is life for now. Night.

Home?

Home is not so great as I had hoped. I am slightly bored and need a job and my family is kinda driving me nuts.

Goin Home

Woohoo I get to go home tomorrow. I am slightly excited about this. I definitely need a break. I will be glad to be back in Canon for a while. Let's see how long the happy lasts.

Finals

Damn I have three finals tomorrow. I am going to study ... no really I am. I don't want to get up at fucking 6:30 so I can make it to my final at 7:30!!! AHHHH I don't get home until 2. Tomorrow is going to suck so bad. Bleh.

Don't feel good

I really don't feel good this morning. I wanna throw up but I can't. I just want this feeling in my stomache to go away.

Not going to make it til finals

I am so fucking stressed out and I think that I am getting depressed again. Maybe I should take my meds again...I don't want to though. I hate them. Fuck school I don't want to do it anymore. I just feel blah. I'm not even sure I feel much of anything right now. I don't know what is wrong with me. I just want to go home.

Simon

I love love love this song (loves must always come in threes as well)Lifehouse is the shit.

Simon by Lifehouse
Catch your breath
Hit the wall
Scream out loud as you start to crawl
Back in your cage
The only place
Where they will leave you alone
'Cause the weak will seek the weaker 'til they've broken them
Could you get it back again
Would it be the same
Fulfillment to their lack of strength at your expense
Left you with no defence
They tore it down
And I have felt the same
As you, I've felt the same
As you, I've felt the same
Locked inside the only place where you feel sheltered where you feel safe
You lost yourself in your search to find something else to hide behind
The fearful always preyed upon your confidence
Did they see the consequence
They pushed you around
The arrogant build kingdoms made of the different ones breaking them 'til they've become just another crown
And I have felt the same
As you i've felt the same
As you I've felt the same
As you I've felt the same
Refuse to feel, anything at all
refuse to slip, refuse to fall
can't be weak, acn't stand still
You watch your back, 'cause no one will you don't know why they had to go this far
traded your worth for these scars
for your only company
don't believe the lies that they told to you
not one word was true
you're alright, your're alright, your alright
And I felt the same
As you I've felt the same x3

Not Beautiful

I love this song it is by Radial Angel a band I discovered by accident at another concert

Not Beautiful-Radial Angel
Is anyone there
Does anyone care
Is anyone listening to me instead
I'm careful what I say
Careful what I do
It rips me apart those little things you do
So You lift my head
And put away the pieces to my broke heart that's dead
One thing I ask..

Am I not beautiful enough for you
Am I not rich enough to make you happy
Am I not beautiful enough for you
So now I'm falling out of reach
(Chorus)

Shoot it to me straight
I can bear the shame
Is that what you asked of me today
Sick of all your lies
Of the ones trapped inside
You don't give a hint of what you're thinking
So now you take me by the hand
And put away the pieces to my broken heart that's dead
One thing I ask..
I'm falling out of reach

(Chorus)
I don't care about those things
Because I'm beautiful
In God I'm beautiful
And I'm falling out of reach

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Stressed

I have so much to do before next friday! I am really stressed out. I have three papers to write, two essays, a math project, two spanish projects, two tests and four finals to study for. AAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I will be okay and I will get it all done. I can do this and do well. okay I just needed a pep talk. hehe.

These are some random things I made a while ago I just thought I would post them.

Pains

So today we decided that boys are hard to deal with so we are just going to use them for their bodies. LOL okay so not really, but they can be damn annoying at times.
I really miss certain people at times. Probably way more than I should. I really miss my boys. I miss Logan and Luke. Damn you boys are fun. Definitly need to call them so we can go to lunch. In all honesty the person I miss most right now is Dave. I really like him a lot. Fuck his girlfriend!!!!!!!!!! but I want him to be happy. But I want him. Damn boys make lives complicated. Bleh I am not in a very good mood. I need to get back to homework. Damn

I hate school

Damn School! I cannot find what I need to write this damn paper. Fuck Fuck Fuck. (Fucks must always come in threes you know) I really really want to be done with this semster. I want to go home and work and do nothing again. Bleh I hope I get to go to bed soon.

Hello World

So this is my first post which sucks because I have nothing to say but my page looked so bare. I will post something much more interesting later.