What I Know

I love:
*green
*pirates
*interesting people
*watching people
*mail
*penpals
*movies
*books and bookstores
*compassion
*having fun
*drinking
*being by myself sometimes
*making jewlery well and just jewlery
*making collages
*cutting up magazines
*learning
*tattoos and piercings
*motorcycles
*boots
*stories of revolution and strong women and men who made a difference
*other cultures besides this selfish American one

I hate:
*pink
*apathy
*stupidity
*whiny people
*having scars that don't have good stories
*having to live up to other people's expectations and standards
*school
*most girly things
*being girly
*crying
*patriotism for the wrong reasons and stupid displays of patriotism
*racism, sexism, ageism, and a whole slew of other isms
*poverty and homelessness

I fear:
*you (just kidding)
*being alone with no one to help me
*asking for help
*crying in front of others
*being weak
*waking up and going to sleep
*wasting my life and not making a big enough impact

I regret:
*not knowing what I wanted or want
*being oblivious
*being such a bitch
*not taking care of myself
*not knowing myself as much this past year as I have in the past

Think I am contradictory? Well every personality profile I have ever taken says so.

Christmas

Merry Christmas! or well the day after. I love Christmas partially because my birthday is the day before Christmas and partially because it is just a fun time of year. I stayed in Durango this year and my family came to visit me. They left this morning which was a lot sadder than it usually is. I kind of wanted to go home with them but I have to pick up Cece in a few days and I know I wouldn't want to stay two weeks there. If I had my own car or a way to get back I think I might have gone. I miss them a lot. More than I realized I guess.

Finals

I just finished with my 7:30 MONDAY MORNING Final. How stupid a time is that for a final. Oh well at least I am done for today. One down three to go! I fucked up and still have not finished my paper. I am going to do that today. It was due Friday but I am hoping my prof will be nice and let me still turn it in. I think he will. Well I'd better get that done today so I should start on that. FINALS!!!! I am almost done thank god.